I can't look anyone in the eyes.
That's nobodys fault but mine.
Disconnected and dissonant, essentially non-existent.
I've spent too many years trying to purge this apathy but the truth is it's worse.
So I've come to the conclusion that I will always be a burden.
I get anxious and nauseous when I think of death or of you.
You only see the beauty in this world.
I only see that it's fucked up and pointless.
I don't want to be the one to take that from you.